I have a hard time believing Julian is gone. He is everywhere around our house in his art, his work and the people he touched. He passed on April 29, 2011. He told me time and time again in the month before his death that he was at peace and not afraid. He didn't quote the Bible, but John 14:27 , "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." describes his feelings as expressed to me. He said the day before he died, "I'm not going to make it through the night." He knew partly because he had just dreamed of his Mother and told me that he woke up calling her name. The night he died when I was with him he also woke up calling her name. I am comforted that she was there leading the way. He died a year and a day after his good friend Chris. I picture Chris and Julian up there being followed around by Merlin our cat who died a few months ago. These things all give me comfort, but I am still so sad to loose him and miss him so much.
We babysit our granddaughter Jules at least one day a week and Julian loved her. She is so joyful and happy and makes us laugh. Even when he didn't feel well because of chemo, I would often hear his booming laugh blasting out from where they were playing together. That was music to my ears. The last thing he taught her was how to point and touch index fingers with someone (like ET). She often looks me straight in the eye, reaches her finger out, waiting for me to meet her halfway in our own little Papa like communication. 
I think I'm singing, "Five little monkeys jumping on the bed" here. She would climb and jump from one of us to another when we were sitting on the couch, thus the song. Yes, laugh if you must, but I have musical touretts. It's a gift I got from my mother. 
This is one of my favorite pictures of Jules. What more can I say.
We have been very lucky to be able to spend so much time with Rowan and Dylan since they were born. We visited them a lot and they visited us. Kirsten and the kids spent 3 months living with us while waiting to join Rob in India. They thought it was going to be a few weeks, but we were lucky enough that India took more time than expected to process their paperwork, etc. That was such a fun time and such a blessing in our lives. 
This is Kelly and her husband Dean on a trip to Arizona. Spending more time with Kelly these past few years made Julian so happy. We got to see her each time we went to Atlanta, then in Puerto Rico and we got to take her on 2 tours of Arizona. This picture was taken at Indian gardens at Oak Creek Canyon where we always stop for lunch. 
Julian doing one of his favorite things, hiking.
The picture above was taken at Kristen and Rob's wedding. Dave Dunlap and Jules are looking sexy in their kilts! This is one of my favorite pictures of Julian and Dylan up in Flagstaff when a storm was coming in. Their matching shirts was not planned but certainly cute.
Granddaughter Amy has visited us 3 times in Arizona and it has been great fun getting to know her so well. This was at the North Rim of the Grand Canyon. 
Three generations of Julian Harbour Clarks!
Jules and "the fruit"
Julian and I at Hermits Rest at the South Rim of the G.C.
We were hiking in our favorite aspen grove at the base of the San Francisco Peaks in Flagstaff. There was a fire in that area, but I understand (and hope) that this beautiful grove was spared.
